Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
Princess; daughter of the King
Lim Shi Ying Laura
RGS 414'10
RGSPB, Fedele!
45th GB, Levites!
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Wednesday, April 30, 2008
-1:13 PM
I remember the time when Disneyland was greeted by wide grins and anything scenic or natural was regarded with disdain. It wasn't so long ago, actually, but, thank God I now know better =D I was gazing out of the back seat window on my way home from school today, and it struck me how pretty the trees look. And I'm not really a fan of the colour green. It's just that each tree looked different. Some were tall, hunky umbrella trees, very muscular, with abs and what not. Some were tall but slim, others were short and anorexic. But the thing about each of these trees is that they are all different. And they are all beautiful, in their own ways. Some trees had dainty pinkish leaves, some had pruple leaves, some just had the normal green leaves. But even in the green, there was an array of colours. It just went together, somehow, despite all the bitsy differences. And although birds nest ferns or stag horn ferns may be sort-of, 'parasitic' (not that they eat up the tree though,) they looked pretty on the trees. Somehow, just somehow. But exactly, how? I believe these beautiful things we see around really point towards the presence of our creator, God. There's this song I sang long time ago in choir. It's called all things bright and beautiful. It was a hymn, but the melody was changed to make it into a choral work. It captures the essence of this post. Hmm, I'll go find it.
All things bright and beautiful, all creatures great and small, all things wise and wonderful: the Lord God made them all.
1. Each little flower that opens, each little bird that sings, God made their glowing colors, and made their tiny wings. (Refrain)
2. The purple-headed mountains, the river running by, the sunset and the morning that brightens up the sky. (Refrain)
3. The cold wind in the winter, the pleasant summer sun, the ripe fruits in the garden: God made them every one. (Refrain)
4. God gave us eyes to see them, and lips that we might tell how great is God Almighty, who has made all things well.
Indeed, the Lord God made them all.
Monday, April 28, 2008
-10:33 PM
Quick update here. Things have been good. Although for the weekends I was really busy with concert and all, I had a fair bit of time to recharge and read my history notes once through. Okay I admit I didn't really study on my birthday but HEY, it's just one day (nyeh nyeh fine forgive me just once!) Today I spent TAWG once I got home! Felt fabulous. I must really do that everyday! And then, I watched Parts 1-4 of TKA 20. I think it was really good. Haha. I'm a crazy romantic. Watch ISWAK (it started with a kiss) and the equally good sequel TKA (they kiss again) when you have the time, if you don't mind taiwanese chinese and mushy scenes. It's a good show and I think the acting's really good considering it's taiwanese! Bathed, dinner, and then got down to do graphs (I've been slacking in math clearing my other homework!) Thank God my parents are more or less qualified to teach me stuff, maybe other than Chemistry (my mum's chinese ed), haha. God's been good la. Anyway, after graphs, I did history with my parents. It was really fun. And because I turned off my laptop, I wasn't in a rush to get back into my room to see if any desperate soul needed urgent help online! XD School today was good too. A highlight- Deborah Tang's letter! Haha, somehow she knows how to make me happy, aww... I'd really really like to go out with her and Sis Kassey after MYAs! Sentosa would be nice! *shrieks* haha, don't know la. Last year I barely went out! I can hardly believe that. Somehow I was so much more of a loner last year than this year. In a sense, it helps because it's easier to stay 'holy' when you're alon (like, how do you joke about sick stuff if you're alone! Or lie when you're alone!) but that's not the way to go, hehe. I'm being really random here, but yesterday was really nice too, in the sense that Miyuki wrote me a very sweet computer note. It's an amazing feeling when you try hard to help someone grow in God, and the person grows. Of course, there's still a LONG journey ahead, but I believe that very often, the first steps are the hardest! (: Discipling people is so fulfilling. Especially because God's always there! *grins* And I will trust in the Lord, Lean not on my own understanding, In all my ways acknowledge Him. Let Your will be done in my life, Let Your will be done in my life. Thank You Lord for bringing me back, again.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
-10:19 PM
AHHHH TKA Episode 20 is tomorrow! Whee, so exciting.... Tomorrow is such a, ahem, SPECIAL day. Hah, don't you ever forget! XD Ohwell, should go mug and do homework now, bye!
-8:25 PM
Whee this is one of my options for list c! hehe, Dawn Upshore is good! (:
Today, although there IS MEP exam tomorrow, I decided to read IGNYTErs blogs. Today, I realised how important it is to talk to people.
Honestly speaking, I've changed a big deal since coming to a girls school. I've played very defensive in terms of making friends. Being class chair doesn't help either, some how, it seems I come across as very aggressive and domineering. Recently I've been going around with Voon and Viv (ian! xD) They're really nice people, heh.
Haven't spoken to Deborah Tang for REALLY long. I really really want to! I don't know if we can still speak to each other the same way as before, but I certainly hope so.
After MYAs, I'll call.
Back to Benn's blog. I would say that it really is encouraging. Her most recent post impacted me. How it did, I only have a vague idea. Oh well.
I should get back to studying for MEP now. I know why these MYAs are so very important.
My parents have been worrying that I'm not coping (and so disallowing me to join worship.) Pastor Gary said that after multiplication, he wants me to ask my parents again.
About the choir thing, since it's only been there in theory and at the back of our minds, I think it's pretty much immaterial now.
Study hard, study for God.
I will seek to bring Your name glory. I will seek to bring Your name honour. I will seek to magnify your name in everything I do. To give my life completely unto You.
1 Corinthians 10:31 So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.
For you will I press on, Jesus.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
-8:12 PM
Was reading my old blog. Some stuff I'd like to bring back!
1. "I was talking about SIs Christine, but I forgot something SO important. MY MY. During altar call she walked up to me laid hands on me and paused a while. And she said, "Laura I think God is telling you that you are in front of the river, fast-flowing, strong, wide. The Lord God is on the other side. You want to cross it, but you don't dare to. But the Lord is stretching out His hand to you to help you to cross the river." That was extremely impactful to me. I've been struggling with a lot of things. Like sins. I sin a lot. I am not obeying God the way I should be. I shouldn't grieve the Holy Spirit. And the river symbolises the sin. So fast, sometimes I might want to flow along the river, so easily, instead of OVERCOMING the river. I should really surrender these sins to God in order to step into a new season, in order to experience BREAKTHROUGH."
2. "Sis Christine gave me a word. That God's telling me that He will give me breakthroughs after breakthroughs, that in these 2 years I will experience tremendous growth. And 'these 2 years' sounded vague, but I think it's the 2 years in lower sec."
3. "And I prayed for breakthrough. Because so many times I've gone to the altar. I've sensed God's presence, I've felt His touch. And He HAS given me breakthrough. But in the obedience/discipline/focus thing, I've been trying. I've really been trying. But I face obstacle after obstacle, internal, external, EVERYTHING. I've gone to the altar and get touched by God, words from God through leaders/songs/EVERYTHING, yet it's still about the follow-through, between the altar and the door. These words just keep ringing in my mind. Scary, sure, but terribly real. And I haven't received breakthrough. So let me say I'm still praying and believing :D Thank God anyway."
yeap. I should mug now, bye!
Thursday, April 17, 2008
-8:35 PM
16 April The concert was pretty much fun. My favourite part? Roaming around the backstage looking for artistes! Did that with Kelly. We met the theatre group doing the musical We Will Rock You! We passed them along the corridors, and they were really friendly! Haha, Kelly and I tried out luck, saying, "Hi!" And they returned it, with smiles(: Outside the theatre was a screen and we could watch it from there (without paying!) Haha we also saw the entrances and exits of cast members. Heh, doesn't that make you wanna do performing full-time? Meet so many of these very interesting people. (Nah, this wouldn't be a good-enough reason to join the entertainment circle. As if I had such an intention anyway! xD) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/We_Will_Rock_You_(musical) In Singapore, the musical opened at the Esplanade Theatre on March 28, where it will run until April 27, 2008 Haha, must have been them. 27 April! AH! *Goes berserk* hint... hint... Haha. But I think my parents weren't very happy with my performance in the quintet and octet. I wouldn't blame it solely on having to sing the alto part though. Haha, not as if we had more than 3 rehersals... Still, not as if I practiced, heh. Lit PT due tomorrow! AH. Wait I have a few words to say about 26/4 concert! We'll be singing from a pagoda... doesn't sound too good, eh? Man, shouldn't have agreed to go. Clashes with SP commissioning service, takes away MYA-mugging time (and I'll have to mug on my birthday because of this okay!!) Ohwell. Had better go do lit PT. Bye!
Monday, April 14, 2008
-9:06 AM
Speechless. Anne sent me the URL for this to prepare guitar for FOTL today. As I was listening to it, I realised that it's really really meant for me. Yesterday night due to frustration and pressure with problems that suddenly appeared and all that, I was really overwhelmed. Actually it wasn't much to do with those things, they're small problems and easily solved. Let's just say it was the last straw. I got on my knees and started bawling. Seriously. Okay I do admit that at that point in time I was whining to God, again. Just that this time, my parents heard and they opened the door. I was pretty embarrassed, honestly. I didn't really want them to know I was THAT stressed because usually I manage my stress and I try not to appear stressed (though it shows when I blow too often or not bother to dress up.) Anyway, yea, it helped talking to them la. I realised that aren't as results-obsessed as I thought they were. And I also realised that they didn't really mind me studying a day before the exam, as long as it's done and sufficiently prepared. They didn't seem to mind that I was terribly disorganised either. You know what, that makes my life so much easier. About my walk with God (I think one of the reasons of my stress), my parents told me something I never realised. Stress, anxiety, anger all that, these feelings don't come from God. My parents told me that it's not true that I'm not hungry for God, if I'm unhappy over my walk with God. Rather, it's a lie of the enemy, among many other lies the devil has deceived me with. Through the conversation I was also reminded that my faith in God cannot be based on my emotions. It's not like "If I don't feel you there, then I don't trust you."
After the whole conversation, it was 1am + but you know what? I was SO at peace. It's amazing how God works. I'm gonna share with the Levites at FOTL today.
I'm gonna place my absolute trust in the Lord and surrender to Him.
I'm giving you my heart, and all that is within I lay it all down for the sake of you my King I'm giving you my dreams, I'm laying down my rights I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new life
And I surrender all to you, all to you And I surrender all to you, all to you
I'm singing You this song, I'm waiting at the cross And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss For the sake of knowing You for the glory of Your name To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain
Sunday, April 13, 2008
-11:10 PM
Ohman. I think in my haste I angered someone. Gosh, I feel really bad. Gosh gosh gosh what to do. On a side note, lit PT isn't going any where. I need to get my personal statement done.
FOTL tomorrow, exciting. Change topic.
I've been rambling about how I wanna change my life back to what it used to be. BUT There hasn't been action or action plan! Oh well. Gosh there's so much to do and I'm getting frustrated at people and I don't want to. Forget it. I should just shut my mouth. Oh well.
-9:36 PM
I was speaking to Ern Chuen. It's amazing how somehow, through situations, I've grown to trust him. Although we aren't say very close or whatever but still he's someone that's given me council when I've needed it. Thanks man. And thanks for the song too
Saturday, April 12, 2008
-10:49 PM
Thank God for worship experience, it was enjoyable, it was an encounter. I know that God's telling me to let go and let Him do the rest. I know that I need to be conscious in changing my lifestyle again. I know that God is bringing me to a new level. These obstacles come to mould me, to strengthen me, to grow me. And the Bible does say that God knows what He's doing and He does it only to a point where it is bearable. Guess what? I was speaking to Lester about verses and the power they hold. Told him about how Exodus 14:14 spoke to me last year and I just realised that it's the verse for me now. Exodus 14:14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still. And I believe that this is the verse for this season- a season of moulding and growing. I remember telling God, "I'm not gonna be contented at where I am; I'm hungry, and I want more." And that's not gonna come for free. Looking back, my growth in God is usually fueled by incidents. Incidents that challenge my faith, that show me God's sovereignty and love once again. I finally see what last season was about. It's a feeling of being lost, purposeless. It's testing, but it's also an experience. Firstly I think it's understanding what it's like to be godless again. Secondly, (I know this is still happening) God's teaching me to be steadfast. Regardless of the situation or the feeling. It's easy to live close to God when we get the feeling. But without the feeling, just knowledge and faith? I should really go spend TAWG now. I'm prayer & Bday I/C! Haha, but ALLSTARS, don't forget my birthday... ... It's in about 2 weeks, hehe. I'm certainly not going to get myself a card, and ask people to sign it! xD And, I should also get to taking care of my SBs... SO MUCH TO DO, SO LITTLE TIME... Let go, and let God
-2:03 PM
Stuff aren't going too well at home. Mini fights, bigger fights, a combination. Distractions. They have no place here.
Friday, April 11, 2008
-11:51 PM
Don't know what's wrong with me, really. Today my dad asked me a question, "Were you happier last year than this year?" My answer was, "Yes". The thing is, I've got NO idea why. Frankly speaking, I think it's my walk with God. Last year I had a lot more purpose in everything I did. This year, the lack of purpose is apparent, especially in time-wasters and things that don't make meaning to me, like games and dramas, sometimes. It's not that I don't remind myself of it or anything. I think, it's a sort of contentment. It's like, "Aiyah, nevermind, experienced before" kind of thing. And NO I will not go on like this. It's not the way to go. I really should get back to, not just Bible reading in itself, but, a regular TAWG. Complete, unhurried, each one a personal encounter. I know it's the hunger that's lagging and pulling me down, the devil that knows how I am when I'm all fired up. And NO, when the Lord is with me, nothing can stand against me. I know that. I've got my expectations up for Can't Let Go tomorrow. It's so rare to have more than an hour set aside for worship in itself. I believe worship is very powerful. Very recently I was using my iPod for worship. There was this song, "All I need is You", it really spoke to me. But I don't know why, this is a problem that popped up only this year, and that is that what I receive, what I encounter, what God says at the altars stops at the altar. In the past, it would stay with me and I would really embrace all of it. SO, my expectations for tomorrow: -Fresh encounter -Follow-through, not just the encounter, not just 'to the door' but beyond! -Yearning, a new hunger/desperation! -New level of worship -Total devotion & faith
Some of that is... Gradually built-up, not just tomorrow in itself, but also the days/weeks/months following it! Whoa, it's late. Shall go read Bible and sleep! Goodnight, sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite! xD
Thursday, April 10, 2008
-11:05 PM
MEP practical finally over. Upcoming: 16 April Concert & 26 April Concert! Hahaha 26 April is so near a very special date (: Hint: I have to study on that day, grr! A SUNDAY! Haha at least there'll be SUN! (I hope!) Ohwell. Chionging to get the guitar accompaniment settled, to get STUFF TO WEAR (gosh! xD), lyrics memorised (ohman I hate this part! SO much work! Especially since the songs aren't English songs. MYAs coming! MEP Exam next Thursday: Dominant 7th and Picardy 3rd, Passing & Cadential 6 4, Parallel 5ths and 8ves, Piano Analysis MEP Exam next next Thursday: Aaron Copland Rodeo 1st, 2nd & 4th movements + Unseen piece! (So exciting, haha!) What a lousy way to update myself, heh. My parents told me not to put up personal information online. This isn't SO personal right? OH I UPDATED THE LINKS, FINALLY! Yay. Most still don't work but STILL! Haha. I'm mostly done with the blogskin works. Except... I'm gonna try to add in a page... And put in my media there. I've never done that before, just... trying my hands at it! (: Haven't tried. Might give up xD If I can't add a page, I'll use the profile page heehee. Speaking of media, reminds me of dramas! I found a time saver. Put Sweet 18 into my iPod for outside watching yay. Oh and I watched ISWAK2 (TKA) till episode 17. Watched quite a number of dramas this year. Must exercise restraint. And, I must somehow get a planner for myself. School doesn't sell it... Hmm... And I'm naturally grounded... As in, my parents don't let me out on my own... Nevermind, haha. I shall stop rambling, obey my parents and sleep. And gosh. TAWG! AH! BYEEEEEE! (hurryhurryhurry! O:)
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
-10:04 PM
Hey there ;D
It's a wonderful feeling to start a new blog. I just felt that it was a new season in my life, so I decided it was time to move! That's one of the reasons why I've been missing from my old blog for so long! Http://people-need-the-Lord.blogspot.com has a share of memories I would never want to forget. It brought me through the period when God had begun His work in my life, and how He revealed more and more of Himself to me. It's a blog that's served me very well in the year of 2007, a year of accelerated growth, and I'll never forget it. If I ever do, all I would need to do to remind myself of God's faithfulness is to go back there and read it from beginning to end. To end of, let me just say that I'm as excited as ever to face what God has planned ahead of me in this year! I know that 2008 has been a year of moulding, tiring and vigorous trials and testings, lots of obstacles, but I believe that God's strength will bring me through. On a side note, 2.4km was today! Improved my timing by 23s, thank God. I ran with God, yay. I've got a weird habit of chanting rhythms in my mind while running. Before beginning the run, the NEHEMIAH (BATTLECALL! :D) was ringing in my brain so I decided to use the first line. I was running like, "God--is-my--strength". The rhythm is crotchet, quaver, quaver, crotchet, haha. YAY. So fun. IT HELPS(: I look forward to a memorable blogging year! With much love, Laura! P.S. I just realised that my 'starting to blog seriously' period starts in April every year. How queer...
