rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
testimonies
Friday, April 11, 2008
-11:51 PM
Don't know what's wrong with me, really.
Today my dad asked me a question, "Were you happier last year than this year?"
My answer was, "Yes".
The thing is, I've got NO idea why. Frankly speaking, I think it's my walk with God.
Last year I had a lot more purpose in everything I did. This year, the lack of purpose is apparent, especially in time-wasters and things that don't make meaning to me, like games and dramas, sometimes. It's not that I don't remind myself of it or anything.
I think, it's a sort of contentment. It's like, "Aiyah, nevermind, experienced before" kind of thing. And NO I will not go on like this. It's not the way to go.
I really should get back to, not just Bible reading in itself, but, a regular TAWG. Complete, unhurried, each one a personal encounter.
I know it's the hunger that's lagging and pulling me down, the devil that knows how I am when I'm all fired up. And NO, when the Lord is with me, nothing can stand against me. I know that.
I've got my expectations up for Can't Let Go tomorrow. It's so rare to have more than an hour set aside for worship in itself. I believe worship is very powerful. Very recently I was using my iPod for worship. There was this song, "All I need is You", it really spoke to me. But I don't know why, this is a problem that popped up only this year, and that is that what I receive, what I encounter, what God says at the altars stops at the altar. In the past, it would stay with me and I would really embrace all of it.
SO, my expectations for tomorrow:
-Fresh encounter
-Follow-through, not just the encounter, not just 'to the door' but beyond!
-Yearning, a new hunger/desperation!
-New level of worship
-Total devotion & faith
Some of that is... Gradually built-up, not just tomorrow in itself, but also the days/weeks/months following it!
Whoa, it's late. Shall go read Bible and sleep! Goodnight, sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite! xD
