rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
testimonies
Sunday, May 4, 2008
-1:25 PM
To walk in righteousness. Sermon yesterday spoke to me very much, but I guess I didn't respond to it as strongly as I would have. Right now let me just say that my walk with God's getting back on track. It's been going well, although I'm absolutely certain that it's not the best. Haha, ACS motto! XD
It's a good feeling to know that I'm getting more in line with the things of God again, yet there's this lingering feeling that I've been unable to describe for ages that's still bugging me. It's gotten so bad that when asked for prayer requests or to describe situations, I try to describe it, fail miserably and send the wrong message across! But basically, the feeling is that somethings' not right. After yesterday's message, I would think it's caused by righteousness (rather, the lack of it.)
Walking in the ways of God is never easy. But I guess for nearly the whole of last year, it was something I was striving so hard to achieve. And although I would get tired and fail at times, I'd say I was walking in the light much of the time. It was a good feeling.
Somewhere along the way, situations came in the way. I think that was December last year, after SP class (all fired up) and shortly after Battlecall, the devil came against me very very very hard. It was this terrible blow that I've not completely recovered from, and it was immensely painful. The lingering feeling? It's probably guilt- from not living righteously as I once strived to.
I know that I've not been living right. I've been doing things I would shun from last year. School's not helping either. And friends, they help but they can also work the other way. Oh well. This post sounds so emo! XP To me, at least! ANYWAY!
I shall cut the long story short; I'm becoming more and more long-winded! D:
Basically I guess that problem is that I've gotten so worn out living right before God and I kinda, gave up? And then I felt really bad and then it's been bugging me all this time?
Hm, I should be thinking about geog since I'm only halfway through that. Maybe not even halfway. Ohwell.
