rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
testimonies
Monday, January 19, 2009
-8:32 PM
For the year of 2009, God has been speaking to me about being a Joshua. I still hold closely the 2 words God placed upon my heart last year, faith and courage, because God is not done with me then, but the Joshua bit is simply amazing. I remember seeking God for direction and vision for the year of 2009 last year, and on the 2nd day of RAD(i)CAL Camp, God gave me "Joshua". It was so puzzling at first, but it's all coming together. The most amazing thing about it is that even before anyone started talking about the book of Joshua, God had already spoken to me about it. At that time though, I was stunned. "Joshua? It's not an adjective or a common noun. What on earth does that mean!" And so that's how I was led to the book of Joshua. So much has been preached about Joshua. Joshua the (new) leader, and bearer of great responsibility Joshua the faithful, Joshua the willing, Joshua the overcomer, Joshua the victor, Joshua the man of faith. There have been so many lessons I have learnt even through reading the book of Joshua. I don't know why, but I've not been following the Bible Reading Plan for some time now, because God has been leading me to different passages totally "unrelated" to the Bible Reading Plan. I know that as an SP reading following the Bible Reading Plan will set a good example, but at the same time I know that God is leading me in a different direction.
Before I move on to more things, here's a testimony from Radical camp. First off, THESE were my expectations from camp:
1. New vision & direction for 2009, and beyond (fulfilled for 2009, not just be a Joshua, but also revival among Christians in RGS then moving out, and reaching out to my class. God has also given me a promise which I will share in my next post.)
2. Breakthrough stagnancy in my walk with God to grow to a new level of faith and a deeper relationship (fulfilled, thus far)
3. New level of worship & prayer (fulfilled)
4. New realisation of God's omnipresence (in the works)
5. Retuning my directions for ministry expressions (fulfilled; IH + PTF + SP)
6. Learn to lean on God in uncertain and trying times and to place CONFIDENCE in God (the trying times have yet to come, but I know what they will be and I can see how placing confidence in God is going be so, so important!)
I thank God for the fulfillment of the vast majority for my expectations, as well as revealing His promises and His plans as to what will come in this year of 2009. I will really need tons and tons of faith to pull through, to move out of self-doubt and to trust in God, and to know that as 2 Corinthians 12:9 says "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in your weakness". All glory be to God, and I look forward to a great year of learning, growing and impacting the lives of others!
