rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
testimonies
Thursday, June 11, 2009
-11:18 PM
I MUST SPEND TAWG. I MUST SPEND TAWG. It is unbelievable and extremely disappointing that I have not had TAWG for eons AGAIN. Despite my best of efforts. And I have continued to sleep between 12mn - 2.30am. GRAWR.
I am running out of time! D: I've not started a single PT. And it seems many people don't quite understand.
(Like, I don't mean to be mean or point fingers or what but I think my GB batch doesn't quite see the magnitude of the amount of work my campaign demands, and are still expecting me to do their work. I'm totally totally fine doing what's expected of me or doing something that perhaps I could provide some extra help/insight to. But asking me to do something that they could easily do on their own I feel is in part laziness and pushing work to me. I'm not trying to diva myself up and make it look like, y'know, just because I'm campaigning I can't do any GB work. I'm not saying that! I'm just saying that I hoped for a little bit more understanding and perhaps assistance, in the sense that they consider constraints on my end as well. I won't tell them though; at the end of the day GB is still a family and at the same time a commitment for me and the possibilty of misunderstanding is not worth it, really.)
Sunday, June 7, 2009
-10:55 PM
Wow. Wow. Wow.
What happened to my June Holidays! It's GONE. GONE. GONE. Well, okay, not that I'm complaining. I have lots MORE to be thankful for. But before I begin, can I just say this- I'm pretty shocked with Lidan's response to my blog. I expected her to be surprised about what I blog/think about, but she was like, "That's so Laura!" Hmm, I'm impressed(:
Anyway, anyway, I'm gonna yabber about my holidays. What I have to do, what I want to do, what I hope to get out of it, and what I will do (come to some sort of compromise between what I have to do and what I want to do, according to what I hope to get out of it). Gosh, I sound like I'm writing some sort of... REPORT. Grawr.
MY HOLIDAY TO-DO LIST:
1. SS PT
2. Chinese PT
3. Bio PT
4. 2 Zian Baos
5. 2 Xiao Lian Bis
6. Learn Ting Xie/Mo Xie/Cheng Yu test stuff
7. Get my chinese file in order (contents page mainly)
8. Chinese report writing
9. Read history notes
10. Math worksheet
11. Chem worksheet
12. Dynamics post-test on Moodle
13. RGPB Website
14. TIES (okay this one's due soon, like, tomorrow)
15. Study/research for IMUN
16. Plan buddy outing
17. Plan June Camp FOOD
18. Plan June Camp worship
19. Plan buzz group outing
20. MY CAMPAIGN :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D D:
Serious, that's how I feel about my campaign! I'm very very very very very very excited and very glad to have this opportunity, but at the same time I'm just very slightly disappointed that once again I have no chance to rest and have to continue slogging until the end of the year with no recharging point (seeing that the September holidays have NEVER given me the chance to have a good break). I was actually looking forward to the June Holidays a lot because of all the exciting things I have (like IMUN) lined up and the thought of being able to sleep early and wake up late most days just gave me this whole feeling of "Ahh, niceeeee". Truth is, the earliest I've slept this week is 12 midnight and the latest is 2.30am. Thanks to Physics PT, MEP Camp, Sergeants Weekend and some campaign stuff. More late nights to come, obviously, looking at my to-do list. But anyway, I'm gonna try to sleep early. Sleeping early is important. Health is wealth, blah blah blah. Muahaha. Anyway, the June holidays is still a blessing. Imagine having all these things and still having to go to school every day! *faints* But I survived 6 months right? So this should be a breeze right? (Haha, lousy attempt to convince myself that the holidays won't be too tiring.)
Whatever the case, I'm going to try my best to use the holidays to get my walk with God back on track. I know I've said it so many times and meant it so many times but somehow something more tangibly urgent/important/interesting popped up so once again I chuck it to the corner.
Okay I should try to start off well. I'll log off NOW, spend TAWG NOW, sleep immediately after that. *with renewed determination*
Stir it up in our hearts Lord
Stir it up in our hearts Lord
Stir it up in our hearts
A passion for Your name
-9:31 PM
I haven't been here in eons, and WOW, so much has changed. 2009 has zoomed before me, and guess what? THE JUNE HOLIDAYS ARE COMING! So much has gone on that I really don't know where or how to start, so I don't think I'll start at all. But what I can say is that I actually miss blogging a fair bit. I always thought of blogging as a really integral part of my lifestyle and I think it is (was, at least). Listen to Laura's wise words (cough cough ahem ahem) "Blogging is good reflection..." *flashes out mirror* Okay okay not meaning to be punny. This post was meant to be serious; what am I doing!
Basically the year has been pretty good for me I guess, especially when it comes to school. I love my class, I love my subjects, I love my friends and teachers and all the things I do in school. Trust me, Sec 3 life has been a blast for me. (Okay, disregard the papers that were given out today and everything has been going good! xD) PB stuff, GB stuff, PEP stuff, MEP stuff, basically everything has been fine and pretty much enjoyable. I've been working my head off (SLIOT, FDAY i/c, TIES, RGPB Website) and having lots of fun and being more mugger, hardworking and efficient than before. (Although I do remember wasting some time reading LIAR GAME before Physics/History/EL/CL/MEP History/MEP Harmony, oopsy!) Anyway, I think you get the drift.
But unfortunately, the same cannot be said of my walk with God and church stuff, which I'm really upset about. That's probably the reason behind my (supposed) unhappiness. As in, people have been telling me that I was a lot more hyper last year and this year I'm a bit more reserved (even though I'm still pretty chatty and loud). I realised that even when everything's going well, I don't have the joy I used to have. When I finish my work and log off at 12mn (or so), my body drags me to bed and my brain nags at me to read the Bible. Let me make a brave but honest confession: I have really been lagging at my TAWG and it's becoming really unhealthy. When my brain nags at me, I mutter a short prayer and wonder off to lalaland, but when my brain doesn't nag I just take the express train there directly. How unbecoming of me. The same goes to church stuff. I used to be a lot more zealous, a lot more punctual (though i still am), a lot more committed. What happened? I think I lost my fire. Not completely because the hunger is still there, but the thing is this- hunger cannot remain hunger forever because it doesn't turn into passion that way!
Still, I have plenty to thank God for. I hope to spend the time I have during the June holidays to spend lots of TAWG.
Anyway, gotta go. Will try to post again soon, even if no one reads :D
