rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
testimonies
Sunday, June 7, 2009
-9:31 PM
I haven't been here in eons, and WOW, so much has changed. 2009 has zoomed before me, and guess what? THE JUNE HOLIDAYS ARE COMING! So much has gone on that I really don't know where or how to start, so I don't think I'll start at all. But what I can say is that I actually miss blogging a fair bit. I always thought of blogging as a really integral part of my lifestyle and I think it is (was, at least). Listen to Laura's wise words (cough cough ahem ahem) "Blogging is good reflection..." *flashes out mirror* Okay okay not meaning to be punny. This post was meant to be serious; what am I doing!
Basically the year has been pretty good for me I guess, especially when it comes to school. I love my class, I love my subjects, I love my friends and teachers and all the things I do in school. Trust me, Sec 3 life has been a blast for me. (Okay, disregard the papers that were given out today and everything has been going good! xD) PB stuff, GB stuff, PEP stuff, MEP stuff, basically everything has been fine and pretty much enjoyable. I've been working my head off (SLIOT, FDAY i/c, TIES, RGPB Website) and having lots of fun and being more mugger, hardworking and efficient than before. (Although I do remember wasting some time reading LIAR GAME before Physics/History/EL/CL/MEP History/MEP Harmony, oopsy!) Anyway, I think you get the drift.
But unfortunately, the same cannot be said of my walk with God and church stuff, which I'm really upset about. That's probably the reason behind my (supposed) unhappiness. As in, people have been telling me that I was a lot more hyper last year and this year I'm a bit more reserved (even though I'm still pretty chatty and loud). I realised that even when everything's going well, I don't have the joy I used to have. When I finish my work and log off at 12mn (or so), my body drags me to bed and my brain nags at me to read the Bible. Let me make a brave but honest confession: I have really been lagging at my TAWG and it's becoming really unhealthy. When my brain nags at me, I mutter a short prayer and wonder off to lalaland, but when my brain doesn't nag I just take the express train there directly. How unbecoming of me. The same goes to church stuff. I used to be a lot more zealous, a lot more punctual (though i still am), a lot more committed. What happened? I think I lost my fire. Not completely because the hunger is still there, but the thing is this- hunger cannot remain hunger forever because it doesn't turn into passion that way!
Still, I have plenty to thank God for. I hope to spend the time I have during the June holidays to spend lots of TAWG.
Anyway, gotta go. Will try to post again soon, even if no one reads :D
