rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
testimonies
Sunday, January 10, 2010
-7:53 PM
I am so blessed, so blessed.
You know what? I realise now that I have been an ungrateful freak. Seriously. I was just sitting here at my comp, thinking about things and suddenly it struck me that I am so blessed. And in spite of that, I choose to focus on what I am not blessed with rather than the many many things that God has blessed me with!
And one of the things that I thank God so much for are my friends. In the past I used to think I just wasn’t the cool kind, and if I didn’t stick around popular people I wouldn’t have good friends. Another thing I always thought was that I didn’t need my friends. But I think in these past few years I’ve been in IGNYTE, in RG, I’ve learnt that that’s far from the truth.
And today is one of those days I arrive at this conclusion, once again. For the 3 awesome friends who blessed me today, thank you. I know it was weird to do what I did all of a sudden there, but honestly, when I saw the SMS I was so scared I didn’t know what to do but to just talk, since you guys were around (compared to when I’m all alone). Thank you for praying for me and blessing me with your uplifting words of encouragement. Thank you for all the concern you showered on me. I truly felt the love of God through you guys today(:
And there are so many other things to thank God for too! I realise that while triumph is truly “still on it’s way”, there are other reasons to smile during the storm. And that in all things, there is that unspeakable joy that is within me, that sustains me, that brings me through.
And so here we have it (though I haven’t actively thought about it!), my 2010 focus points!
(On a side note, today’s sermon/service was hugely relevant to my situation. My anthem of the season (Counting on God) was sung, and somehow so many songs, verses spoke to me. And that’s why you see so much of that stuff here!)
Keywords: Thanksgiving, “greaterness”, active faith, molding, trial (interestingly, these 2 were prophetic; they came from someone who doesn’t know me very well, if I don’t remember wrongly.)
People (from the Bible I mean): Gideon
Verse: This one’s interesting. I learnt this Psalm by heart in 2005, as an “assignment” from my dad. Back then, it was but a "cool thing” I could do to impress people, and honestly I didn’t understand it much. 5 years have passed, and this Psalm remains in my heart, just as clearly as it did then. And I am so glad I learnt this Psalm, because it never fails to speak to me.
Psalms 91
1 He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. [a]
2 I will say [b] of the LORD, "He is my refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust."
3 Surely he will save you from the fowler's snare
and from the deadly pestilence.
4 He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness will be your shield and rampart.
5 You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
6 nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness,
nor the plague that destroys at midday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
8 You will only observe with your eyes
and see the punishment of the wicked.
9 If you make the Most High your dwelling—
even the LORD, who is my refuge-
10 then no harm will befall you,
no disaster will come near your tent.
11 For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways;
12 they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.
13 You will tread upon the lion and the cobra;
you will trample the great lion and the serpent.
14 "Because he loves me," says the LORD, "I will rescue him;
I will protect him, for he acknowledges my name.
15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life will I satisfy him
and show him my salvation."
Song: Desert song
VERSE 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
VERSE 2:
This is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flame
CHORUS:
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
VERSE 3:
This is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
CHORUS:
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
BRIDGE:
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship (x4)
CHORUS:
I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here (x2)
VERSE 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favour and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow
So there :D AWESOMEE! I was going start on Isaiah, but I suddenly decided to start on Psalms instead. Hmm… Yeah I think that’s good. I’m gonna go into a time of worship now, and then spend some time praying and seeking God, and then pack my room and read the chinese papers and sing and go to bed :D I’ve stopped my one-meal fast due to concerns from my mum, and so I’m gonna start on my INTERNET FAST tomorrow! Which means no internet, except for INET, email, blogger, and MSN. And any stuff I know I actually need for work (my conscience will have to exercise some discretion here!) Oh, but I’m going to do this till the end of the year! As in, 31st December D: So I shall have a break every Sunday communion! :D
Yeahh. Please don’t tempt me to break fast. That’s one of the most painful and regretable things for me to do! (Though I can already start to imagine how absolutely difficult it will be to PLAY online once a month even when all the exams are over!)
