rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
testimonies
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
-10:30 PM
I’m at a loss. Completely.
It’s kind of strange though. I’m like completely in denial. But the thing is, the whole situation is so absurb, how on earth can you expect me to believe it? My behaviour is absurb too, actually. I’m like, “Orhh, okay”. Haha. With some anger in there, I believe. And a whole bunch of denial. But I’m not upset (or so I think) and that’s just plain weird.
And the strange this is that things still seem normal on one hand. Haha it’s so hard to speak in codes sometimes I end up not saying anything that’s comprehensible XD
I have no idea what to do. And everyone whom I’ve told before sometime or another seems busy to me. As in, obviously to listen to me yabber about unpleasant things is uncomfortable… Not that they’ve told me so or I’ve tried to talk to them about my stuff lately but I just feel so bad bothering people. Sis Yinting is like, so busy la! Unless I’m totally desperate I wouldn’t want to trouble her D: Though she always says, “Don’t worry about bothering me”. The rest of them also tell me that and stuff like, “No don’t worry about it I really don’t mind listening” blahblah but I still feel bad to tell them anything! D: Haha, or maybe feeling bad is just an excuse on my part.
Hahaha the strange thing is that I was talking about the lofty ideas? If everything really happens, those aren’t going to be lofty ideas anymore. I’m going to try my best to make them real. They aren’t dreams; to me, they are solutions.
Then again, we’ll see how it goes. It’s hard to cling onto God, but I’ll try. No, I will.
