rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
testimonies
Saturday, July 31, 2010
-11:20 PM
I’m sipping African hot cocoa (mixed with some useless American coffee) and sparing with Lidan about my SS PT as I write this. And a bee is restlessly buzzing around my head. I’ve tried countless times to lure it out of my room, but to no avail. Gosh, I can’t believe I’m so terribly relaxed about this whole PT thing. After all, I have “no tomorrow” (as in, literally) and will probably have to toil through the night to get my 1200 words out. Well, maybe it’s just my good mood today ^^
SP empowerment yesterday! Had dinner with Sis YT and Brenda and Gabriel before that, which was pretty good. Spoke to Sis YT a bit and it was a productive time. Confused me a little at first, but things cleared up a lot after wards. I realised that I was only confused because I was, in a sense, a wee bit reluctant to do certain things. But that cleared too ^^
I had a fantastic TAWG this morning! I’ve been really distant this while, and it really refreshed me. The worship was like, "mount horeb” awesome(: Prayer too. And I started on a new book, 1 Samuel. I’m going to read about the whole life of David.
During my time of worship I was led to this song called “The Pre-eminence of Christ”, which we sang during PBB camp. I love the song because the lyrics are so meaningful, and it’s my song of the season (which I discovered has changed without me realising!)(/edit: I meant the season, not the song)
The Pre-eminence of Christ
(V1) Jesus you are my everything
I want to give you first place in my life
Saviour be my security
Let my trust in you be strong and firm in me
(C) In everything I do
Every word that I say
Let your light shine through me in every way
Lord of life I give to you
All that I have and ever hope to be
My master, be glorified in me
(V2) Oh Lord, the love you’ve shown to me
Reminds me of the need to care for friends
Dear Lord, I glorify your love
Yes I will proclaim your love to every man
(V3) Jesus in all our family ways
He will lead, direct and guide us day by day
Jesus love for each family
And His love we’ll show the whole wide world to see
So meaningful isn’t it! I especially love the chorus(: I was planning to do an informal recording of it, but my dad has the mic. So I’ve gotta wait till he returns, which is still some time from now. Oh well! Gotta go back to plowing through articles for my SS PT, and hopefully not stay up past 4am or something.
I’m not craving my sleep so badly YET, but I’ve got a nasty feeling I will soon ><
Monday, July 5, 2010
-12:41 PM
Yesterday I was so happy, because of what someone said. Well it was the second time I heard it, but I was secretly happy nonetheless. It made me wonder too, though.
Today started okay. But. (Anyway, the event is not actually the point here.)
There’s a certain loneliness within me, I guess. I haven’t confided in someone for a pretty long time. I mean, there’s nothing they haven’t really heard, since these 6 months are just more or less the same thing of the first two months or so. I don’t dare to speak to you. All of you. If you even see this. Which I think you won’t. You guys are busy, you have your lives to lead. Plus, I’ve always felt I’d been bothering you enough, and my sob stories probably get stale after a while?
But the loneliness nags at me. I know I have my heavenly father, but even Him I’ve felt so distant from lately. Somewhat I guess.
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UGH there’s so much so much so much to deal with
