rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
testimonies
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
-12:44 PM
I need some air, and someone to talk to. Which shouldn’t be a problem, except it means I either explain everything from scratch to Sis Ann, or bug the others with more of the same thing XD
GRAWRRR. GRAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
You know, it actually feels better seeing the Rs appear on the screen. Let’s do it again.
GRAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
^^
I feel so uneasy about all of this. There’s a nagging uncertainty ><
Oh, I didn’t mention. The confusion too. I hate the 2 different stories.
I hate it.
Monday, August 9, 2010
-10:34 PM
HAHA I’m so hopeless. Wanna know how hopeless I am? Let me tell you how hopeless I am.
Wait for this.
Yeah, wait for it.
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HAHAHA I STILL MISS TAIWAN D:
Can you believe it! It’s been like, what? Nearly a year since we returned! And I still miss it. GOSH. Okay maybe it’s the applications and everything that are making me totally wanna go again. Or maybe it’s just that I’m so worried the memories will leave me. Most remain I guess, but already some are fading. Like, I can’t remember which shop is at which corner of shidayeshi anymore. As in, if you bring me there of course I can still find my way. But I can’t picture where the shops are like I could before.
There’s a lot I miss about Taiwan. I can totally understand if the others who went with it don’t miss it like I do though. Maybe they do. But for me, part of me misses the freedom we had there. Frankly I’ve been feeling a bit like a zoo animal lately at home. I never felt like that before the trip. I guess the sudden “let go” feeling I got there wasn’t exactly for my good, because I do miss the feeling. A lot. But obviously I miss a lot more than that. I miss staying with friends a lot. There’s a lot more, but I won’t bore you with all that. I’m boring enough as it is (:
But my missing Taiwan is a motivation too! :D Like, I’m convinced that I desperately want to study abroad(: But I’ve got to work hard D: And I’m not working hard enough as it is…
Oh on a side note, I haven’t completed my Taiwan scrapbook. I left so much space for photos I haven’t managed to fill it up, and since my colour printer conked out it takes great effort and determination to get things printed in colour! XD
I WANNA GO BACK TO SHIDAAAAAAAAAA!~
Thursday, August 5, 2010
-11:08 PM
Did a quiz today which said I am:
trait snapshot:messy, disorganized, social, tough, outgoing, rarely worries, self revealing, open, risk taker, likes the unknown, likes large parties, makes friends easily, likes to stand out, likes to make fun of people, reckless, optimistic, positive, strong, does not like to be alone, ambivalent about chaos, abstract, impractical, not good at saving money, fearless, trusting, thrill seeker, not rule conscious, enjoys leadership, strange, loves food, abstract, rarely irritated, anti-authority, attracted to the counter culture
Which is sort of interesting. Somethings are incredibly true, whereas some (like the risk taking and fearlessness) seem not-so-true. And the last bit about anti-authority and counter culture worries me a little. While I'm not against individualism, I don't believe in being anti-establishment. Not really, at least. If I am, that's kinda scary. It's like you believe something but you don't do it...
Hmm.
I've become kinda bochap, but I still think about it a bit, and worry a bit. Like, about her especially. She can't count her blessings; she focuses on everything bad. She's extreme and temperamental and it worries me.