rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
I am Yours
testimonies
Thursday, November 4, 2010
-6:26 PM
Tribute to RGS memories
Yeah, that's what they are now, I guess. Memories. Anyone would know that I am not one to emo about things xD And that's right, because this is not an emo message ;D
Frankly, as I stepped into school this morning, the first thing that struck me was this: "Has my RGS experience really been that great? Why don't I feel anything?" I'm serious, that's how I felt. But as the day passed I began to become more aware of some things I always took for granted, and memories came back. I won't say I feel sad about leaving, but I definitely feel nostalgic.
This is probably quite politically incorrect, but I'll say it anyway. RGS as an institution means practically nothing to me. Rather, it is the people in RGS, be they teachers, or students, that define my experience, and that in turn, make the institution meaningful.
Let me begin with my dearest class 414. It's the most awesome class I've ever had, really really really. I loved it from the start, and now I only love it more. Never have I been in a class so close, so funky and so... awesome, really. It's hard to describe, but there are so many characters in the class, so different as individuals, but united as a class. I never felt a sense of competition, just that of collaboration, and I guess that's pretty rare in RGS. Lessons were really (ridiculously) fun and enjoyable, and studying for exams was a lot more tolerable too. I find it really interesting because although there are cliques and stuff, our class is still amazingly inclusive, and we do a lot of stuff together :D
And of course there's also our teachers. I've been blessed with so many fantastic teachers. Teachers so dedicated, so genuinely concerned about their students, so knowledgeable, so intelligent, so cool, must certainly be hard to come by! In particular, I'd say the teachers who made the greatest impact on my RGS life would be Mr Alvin Tan, Zhang Lao Shi, Miss Kum, Mr Lim, Mrs Mak, Miss Sally Wong, Mr Xu and Miss Sharon Ong. But kudos to all my teachers, because they have all been awesome. I feel like listing them so I'll never forget them, but, hehe, might not be such a good idea after all xD.
Okay come to think of it, RGS isn't just about the people la. There are some defining moments and stuff that I will never forget as well. I think it can be summed up in this: RGS to me is a land of opportunities, or as I penned in the graduation song, chances galore. This is probably the thing love most about it. In so many places, who you are (and how much moolah you have) changes everything. But in RGS it doesn't, or at least, it matters a lot less. You can do nearly anything you want, as long as you have the passion and the determination to push on. There are so many things you can choose to do, and it's this about RG that I love. In the course of my 4 years here I've gone for a month long overseas immersion programme, learnt a whole bunch about glorious glorious music, learnt about God in GB, learnt the guitar and keyboard in GB, had the chance to organise various events and meet people, participate in conventions, campaign for head prefect (and go through many other interviews), gone for OBS, performed a bit, learnt the catwalk, and more. But the biggest thing I regret is not making full use of these opportunities. I barely auditioned for anything in RG, usually out of concern for my grades. Sometimes, I wonder, perhaps I could have used my opportunities better. But then again, there's only so much one can do.
Okay this is super incoherent and boring and drony I'm getting bored of myself. Bye. RGS was a great 4 years.
-5:29 PM
I am truly blessed. It's a bit early to do a 2010 review, but it's been good and I wanna say it before I lose the thought. It's been by far the toughest single year of my life (okay on second thoughts maybe 2003 takes the cake but it's a tough fight anyway) but 2010 is a year that really grew me a lot. I guess some of you might know that 2007 was a really good year for me. 2010 was... better :D I don't judge years by how smooth-sailing they've been. Rather, it's probably been all the trying times that make years memorable. Of course, I'm probably only saying this because things have gotten better (though not entirely, because it's still a hugely precarious situation).
I've learnt many things this year, but I know this for sure: I've learnt to see that I am so, so blessed. And Miss Tan's speech to the class of 2010 reminded me of this.
I am blessed because no matter what I go through, I have people by my side who genuinely care about me, and I have people who will not only listen and encourage, but turn me to Christ and help me to realign my focus. I am blessed because God has given me so much. I am blessed because of the joy I have in my heart. I am blessed because the things I go through aren't just tough stuff that make me miserable but situations that make me better and stronger.
2010 has taught me just that. Of course there are some things about the year that I regret, like wasting time on useless things, not spending enough time catching up with the people I love, drifting from God at times... But I guess regrets are just but part and parcel of all of life's goodness, haha.
Come to think of it, I've done and been through quite a few things this year. It's been good la, and I thank God.
Oh a few more things actually. We sang "Counting on God" last Sunday, and it was yet another reminder of the Lord's grace and provision over my life. He has been so good to me, really, really, really.
By the way, I stopped blogging because my life got smoother and I stopped needing an outlet. Till now, at least. I wanted to put this on FB but didn't have the guts. FB has way too many people for me to express a personal reflection.
